It gets deeper.

Aww you're making me blush :3 You're the lovely one, for always being there for people, making sure they're okay even if they're anon or not, you're there to keep them calm. You're so nice. Maybe it's the right thing, if you're this close being anonymous, you could get to know eachother even more through msn and you'll finally have someone to tell absolutely everything to. If she wants to, of course. She seems like the kind of person you should trust, especially since you've known each other so long :)
Thank YOU for being there for ME, in fact thank you for being there for EVERYBODY. Because you really are, a kind and loveable person :)
<3

Mon, 27 Dec 2010 20:31:11 -0500

Thank you.. Yes she is very loyal…
Agh you’re such a nice person, I hope you stay strong sweetie <3

day 29.:<

Mon, 27 Dec 2010 20:25:57 -0500

day 29.
:<

YOU OWE ME BIG TIME. Don't you dare think of doing that ever again. Okay? I swear I will hunt you down, annonymous or not. I think I deserve to know more about you at least... You should know I won't tell anyone.
Argh daklsfhjlaksdjfhaf never go again <3

Mon, 27 Dec 2010 20:23:15 -0500

I’m so sorry <3
You didn’t deserve any of that…

You are so lucky :) It means that you were meant to be here <3 I understand, it's very hard to come on here every day and be triggered by people saying things and putting pictures of things if you know what I mean D:
Of course I'll keep an eye on her :) If she's ever worried about you I'll try and ensure her that everything's okay :) She only told me your name because I asked about you, I wanted to know you as a real person, rather than a screen name, to be honest :) Also, I understand how you would want to be anonymous, she might get too worried about you and like call people to track you and talk to you :/ Could be a good thing and a bad thing at the same time, but I'm exactly the same on my anonymous blog-I'm very aware of who I'm talking to and what I'm telling people :)
Thank you so much. To be honest, if it weren't for your blog, I wouldn't know what to do with myself. I come here and read everything you post and I have calm washing over me if you know what I mean? You just seem so sweet and nice to everyone, you're so kind and generous :)

<3

Mon, 27 Dec 2010 20:18:06 -0500

Thank you so much… You are such a lovely person, you really are…
I know, I trust her though… I might add her on MSN… I don’t know… She deserves to know me though, after years of messing about being anon.
Thank you for being here for me… I really am lucky <3

im so glad you're back. after you left i was serverly cutting and burning... im so glad you're back. stay true to yourself hunny, i'll see you in heaven some day <3

Mon, 27 Dec 2010 20:15:18 -0500

I’m sorry for any pain I caused anon… We will meet one day <3

Helloo beautiful :)
How're you today?
<3

Mon, 27 Dec 2010 20:01:23 -0500

I’m okay thank you, how’re you sweetheart <3

Oh gawd. I remember logging on and seeing no new posts from you for ages and i started crying. I just saw you on my dashboard and i started grinnning :D <3 x

Mon, 27 Dec 2010 19:56:21 -0500

I’m sorry for any upsetness I caused… <3

I was just scrolling through my dash and I began to see your posts and at first I was like, "oh, posts" and then my eyes got all wide and I saw your icon and I was like "OH THANK YOU GOD SHE IS ALIVE."
It's been a long three months, waiting to see you update, and hoping you would.
I'm so glad you're back. I'm so glad you're on the road to recovery!

Mon, 27 Dec 2010 19:55:49 -0500

Thank you, to be honest, I’m glad I’m still here too… I really am lucky

I just read the orange ribbon post. And it really sucks because I would love to wear one but I know that you don't have anymore...Grr I'm slow. Hahaha

Mon, 27 Dec 2010 19:54:35 -0500

I’m sorry sweetie, ribbon isn’t too expensive anyway, stay strong <3

I'm so happy you're back<33333
I was so worried, I wear the orange ribbon all the time... Thanks so much!

Stay beautiful<3

Mon, 27 Dec 2010 19:53:57 -0500

Thank you sweetie… <3

I need to rest... Goodnight Tumblr... Speak when I next get the effort to come back online <3

Sun, 26 Dec 2010 19:47:29 -0500

I know you don't know me, but I'm glad that you're okay. I wish you the best of luck in whatever you do. <3

Sun, 26 Dec 2010 19:46:08 -0500

Thank you… I hope you’re okay… You’re lovely <3

Thank you for waking up, I was praying every single day for you, hoping you were okay, thinking about your family. I'm so happy that you're alive. <3

Sun, 26 Dec 2010 19:42:49 -0500

Thank you so much… It’s strange to be here after 3 months… I’m so sorry… I need to get through to my best friend but she won’t answer me… I don’t know if she’s on Tumblr at the moment but I swear She posted something as I got on :’(
I’m sorry if I caused any damage <3

Thank you so fucking much. I'm so glad you're okay, I've been so worried about you and I hope you're so much better now.
I love you <3

Sun, 26 Dec 2010 19:25:24 -0500

I love you so fucking much, everyone on Tumblr is amazing…
Thank you… <3

Do you mind explaining what happened?
I'd really like to know. You can tell me in my ask if you want to.
If you don't want to share, that's okay too.

Sun, 26 Dec 2010 19:24:38 -0500

I’ve just posted a post about it all… I’m so sorry, I hope everyone forgives me for being such a fool…

New Years

Sun, 26 Dec 2010 19:23:42 -0500

Next Year is going to get better. It’s all going to get brighter.
I really am lucky to be alive, and those who are in the same situation I was, then please listen to what I have to say…
I have never been so scared in my life…
I tried to stay strong, but deep inside I knew I was just breaking apart, and I did what thousands of others have done. I collapsed. I left. I hadn’t a clue where, but I had to get far away, so when my body was found then no one would recognise me… None of my friends or family would have to go through the pain of finding me…
I spent days getting on and off of different trains, untill I found somewhere no onewould know me. I went to the nearest lake I could find, and jumped. At the time the feeling of having all my problems lifted… But it got so much worse… I couldn’t get out, no matter how much I wanted to, and… And everything went blank… I can’t remember much else… All I remember is waking up in hospital 3 days ago, as I woke up from a coma. I’ve been told that I was found by a 6 year old girl as she was playing with her dog, while out with her dad… The feeling of being alive is unbelievable… You may not think it… but it really is…
I was lucky… I was so lucky to have been found… And that they didn’t pull the plug on me…
Please, just everyone, I beg you, I never want to to stumble down that path… Never…
I still self harm… I still can’t stop, but I know getting rid of my life isn’t an option. I’ve hurt so many people.
I love you all… So much… I’m so sorry everyone… Please forgive me…

It's done. Too late to change it now, so move on and focus on what's ahead, not what's in the past.
Don't feel terrible, I'm sure everyone understands. <3

Sun, 26 Dec 2010 19:11:15 -0500

I know… Thank you… <3

I was worried about you
and so was my friend!
so glad you are alive :)
<3

Sun, 26 Dec 2010 19:10:39 -0500

All I feel like I can do is appologies to everyone…
I love everyone on here so much <3

I am so fucking happy you are alive.
When I read your last post I didn't know what to think.
I'm glad you're okay. ♥
I still have the ribbon and note you gave me.

Sun, 26 Dec 2010 19:09:45 -0500

Sweetie I’m so soorry if I caused you any upsetness…
I was so selfish… You’re beautiful…
Stay strong <3

We're glad to have you back. All of us have missed you terribly.
Its good to know your safe.
Best wishes for the future. <3
xx

Sun, 26 Dec 2010 19:08:56 -0500

Thank you… Thank you so much :’( <3

It gets deeper.

day 29.:<

YOU OWE ME BIG TIME. Don't you dare think of doing that ever again. Okay? I swear I will hunt you down, annonymous or not. I think I deserve to know more about you at least... You should know I won't tell anyone. Argh daklsfhjlaksdjfhaf never go again <3

im so glad you're back. after you left i was serverly cutting and burning... im so glad you're back. stay true to yourself hunny, i'll see you in heaven some day <3

Helloo beautiful :) How're you today? <3

Oh gawd. I remember logging on and seeing no new posts from you for ages and i started crying. I just saw you on my dashboard and i started grinnning :D <3 x

I just read the orange ribbon post. And it really sucks because I would love to wear one but I know that you don't have anymore...Grr I'm slow. Hahaha

I'm so happy you're back<33333 I was so worried, I wear the orange ribbon all the time... Thanks so much! Stay beautiful<3

I need to rest... Goodnight Tumblr... Speak when I next get the effort to come back online <3

I know you don't know me, but I'm glad that you're okay. I wish you the best of luck in whatever you do. <3

Thank you for waking up, I was praying every single day for you, hoping you were okay, thinking about your family. I'm so happy that you're alive. <3

Thank you so fucking much. I'm so glad you're okay, I've been so worried about you and I hope you're so much better now. I love you <3

Do you mind explaining what happened? I'd really like to know. You can tell me in my ask if you want to. If you don't want to share, that's okay too.